For some time now, I have off and on been pretty intensely involved in Course-related matters in Holland, my native country, not in any very overt way, but because of on-going dialog with some Course students, and an active collaboration with Annelies Ekeler in doing translation work for some Course-related writings, like Gary Renard's books, as well as a book by Nouk Sanchez and Tomas Vieira. A year or two ago, I proofread the manuscript for a new book, that has just now come to market in Holland, with a new publishing company called
Inner Peace Publications, (notice that on its web page the mission statement is present both in Dutch and in English), founded by Annelies Ekeler, its the publisher, and chief cook and bottle washer. More than anything else, it is with this book, that I feel the Course truly has "landed" in Holland.
The book, which is excellent, was first turned down by essentially every publisher who covers the topic of spirituality. But evidently with good will and devotion from a lot of people, its publication was eventually realized with the launching of this new publishing venture. These kinds of developments are more or less par for the course in publishing in general, but more particularly with the Course, because subject-matter expertise is not a good predictor of success as a publisher, while on the other hand its absence makes for plenty of dubious decisions. The only alternative in worldly terms seems to be some variety of risk-management techniques, the equivalent of "throwing enough mud against the wall to see what sticks." The craftsman-like publishing of old has died, and its modern corporate equivalent is a dispirited reenactment that seems barely or rarely functional.
The Course itself could never have been published commercially when it was first released in the United States, but it eventually became a best-seller of sorts, when a million copies were sold during its first ten years in print, without any advertising. Likewise, Gary Renard's
The Disappearance of the Universe could never have been published commercially when it first came out, but by the time it was selling 100,000 copies a year publishers came running.
Meanwhile, in Holland, Nicole de Haas, who at the time was the publisher at Ankh-Hermes, the country's largest publishing company of literary works in the category of spirituality, made the decision to publish the Dutch translation of the Course in 1998 and thereby became the original publisher of the Course in Dutch. That decision, although an insightful act of faith, at the time had every appearance of one of those 'bet the farm' type of decisions in the eyes of the bean counters until it was vindicated only by sales in excess of a million Dutch guilders within just weeks of the book's release. Presently, eight editions later, more than 45,000 copies of it have been sold in Holland, which is a huge number for such a small country. However, Ankh-Hermes subsequently were not so lucky in picking Course-related books for publication. The best example of that probably lies in the fact that the company chose not to publish Gary Renard's book when they had the chance, and another publisher picked it up instead, to its good fortune.
Nicole de Haas passed away this year, the same year when IPP, which is solely dedicated to Course-related books, was born in Holland, at a time when commercial publishers rightly or wrongly believe the Course is too much of a niche market, and simply too small to justify the risk. One way or another, now there is a new publisher devoted to the Course, and its first book was released at the end of June.
The book is
Awakening in Love (not available in English at this writing; in Dutch:
Ontwaken in Liefde), and its author is Margot Krikhaar. As mentioned above, I read the book two years ago in manuscript form and its importance was immediately clear to me. I wrote a letter recommending it to various Dutch publishers, and, lo and behold, nobody thought it was commercially a feasible project, so it lingered until a few people got together and formed IPP for the express purpose of publishing Course-related literature in Dutch and eventually possibly other languages as well. Time will tell.
Meanwhile, the book is out, and I think it signifies an important milestone in the further adventures of the Course in the Dutch language. Simply put, this book tells the story from the inside, that is from Margot's personal experience - Margot's experience of actually working with the Course and her subsequent attainment of the real world, aka "enlightenment," or "awakening." Hence the title -
Awakening to Love, which, in the words of the Course, is "our natural inheritance," not as any kind of a feat or achievement, but as simple fact, because it is the goal of the Course and it is the inevitable outcome. Only the time it takes can be hastened if we stay faithful to the process of forgiveness, which is the method or path the Course offers us.
There are many things I could say about this book, starting with the fact that I enjoyed every page of it. More to the point, I saw myself in much of what she shares about her personal experiences which she tells, as well as her business experiences, seen from the perspective of the Course. Taken as a whole the book immediately stands out as being the first original Dutch book about the Course that is entirely devoted to the
content (its practice and experience in daily life) and not the form (theory) of the Course's process. Not for nothing does the Course say "do not let theology delay you," to address exactly this difference between experience and theory, as in the following section:
The ego will demand many answers that this course does not give. It does not recognize as questions the mere form of a question to which an answer is impossible. The ego may ask, "How did the impossible occur?", "To what did the impossible happen?", and may ask this in many forms. Yet there is no answer; only an experience. Seek only this, and do not let theology delay you. [italics mine] (ACIM:C-in.4)
Margot freely shares her process with us in the book and focuses our attention therefore on the experiential rather than the theory side of the Course. And thus this book, born from the experience of living the Course - that is, actually learning to live by the guidance of Jesus and the Holy Spirit, instead of in slavery to the ego - signifies in a lot of ways what I mentioned earlier: the Course has truly arrived in Holland. It is an entirely authentic Dutch experience of the
process of the Course, and thereby simply transcends all the noise issues that inevitably surround the Course particularly in a translated form. No translation is ever perfect, but if it is true that translation requires understanding (in the sense of experiential knowing), then this book is the best translation of the Course I know of in Dutch, for it is written from that kind of understanding, and expressed in everyday Dutch colloquialism, which will help people to overcome, in rapid tempo, the occasional difficulties with the text of the Course itself, especially in translation. As such it will no doubt do wonders for those Dutch Course students who decide to pick it up.
Among the many things I could share about the stories of Margot's own life experience in the transition from ego-bound decision-making to living with the guidance of the Holy Spirit, I'll take just one that seems relevant here, - particularly in the context of what I referred to above about the difficulty of making
business decisions (any decisions really). She discusses a period of her life when she was on public assistance, and, at the same time organizing her own counseling practice, where she needed to function within a framework of numerous requirements, including various business-training courses, demanded of her by both welfare agencies and professional organizations. She describes very vividly how dispiriting such frameworks were, for as the very nature of the ego suggests, this is all reasoned from need, and has nothing whatsoever to do with inner purpose.
No wonder economics is called the dismal science! After all, the ego's scarcity principle, described in the Course, is the very foundation of the concept of value in the world. Therefore, it follows that the entire business framework, about which we learn in school, suffers from the same issues, as it is based on a valuation and organization method which of course takes its foundation in the notion of separation and need for survival, and thus cannot do anything else but be oriented to models of our individual (separate) "reality" such as Maslow's hierarchy of needs, in which spirituality is a luxury we acquire - where no one knows - after all other needs of existence are satisfied. Thus the assumption of the model is that "I" the sole proprietor, or practitioner, or "we" the corporation, have certain needs that must be met in order to survive, and that the whole purpose of our business is our survival. After all, otherwise why bother? All of this seems valid and reasonable, and my comments are not meant to invalidate that process. However, as we change our own way of looking at things, the inadequacy of such an approach to living becomes apparent as we are learning to live a life of spirit. The results of making this transition from ego-bound survival to listening to the Holy Spirit, will manifest in myriad specific forms for each of us, but Margot's own process with it, and the very personal and direct way she deals with it in the book are truly an inspiration.
The life of spirit is a life of abundance, though it may not necessarily manifest in form. After all, Jesus' final moments were hardly comfortable in terms of outer circumstances; yet in spite of it, he was at total peace knowing he was not his body. So the Calvinistic confusion of form and content, in which "abundance" is interpreted to mean material and bodily wellbeing in the world of form, needs to be looked at with one's Inner Teacher and sorted out. In learning to live from spirit, it will one way or another become clear to us that the ego-bound methods fall short, and, not only that, are a trap that will bind us to the past and to scarcity by their very nature. For they will create a future like the past, the mechanisms of projection guarantee it. So while Margot did go through the motions with all of this good advice and guidance, in the end her process took her to the position where she gave up the ego's fear-based survival tactics entirely, and in the true spirit of what it means to follow the Internal Teacher whom the Western tradition calls Jesus, she found herself having to "lose" her "life" before picking it up anew and becoming the inspiration which she now is and lives, as her book testifies. Suddenly, she is also experiencing an inflow of serious Course students in her workshops, and I'm sure the book will do well, though none of that is necessary, lest we confuse content and form all over again.
In short, the initial decision to publish the Course in Dutch was, again, clearly an act of faith, which would seem irresponsible to the normal understanding of business planning, because it always judges by the past. Yet, it turned out to be the right decision, and a very sound decision indeed. But the commonly accepted reasoning is always based on deriving content from form. As such, it will always fail, as we have seen in spades with, for example, the recent Wall Street burnout. All the mathematical models work only as long as the world conforms to the model, and the financial industry simply ignores that and considers a crash as an accident or an unpredictable externality, like a natural disaster, when a child could see that it is entirely implicit in the methodology, as we touched on here. Ultimately, it cannot work, for, while the ego thought system is fool-proof, it is, thankfully, not God-proof, as the Course also says, here:
You need not fear the Higher Court will condemn you. It will merely dismiss the case against you. There can be no case against a child of God, and every witness to guilt in God's creations is bearing false witness to God Himself. Appeal everything you believe gladly to God's Own Higher Court, because it speaks for Him and therefore speaks truly. It will dismiss the case against you, however carefully you have built it up. The case may be fool-proof, but it is not God-proof. The Holy Spirit will not hear it, because He can only witness truly. His verdict will always be "thine is the Kingdom," because He was given to you to remind you of what you are. [italics mine] (ACIM:T-5.VI.10)
And so, Margot's story in this book is the story of learning the Course's daily lessons of forgiveness and accepting the atonement for oneself, with all the practicality of daily experience. It is the story of learning to increasingly distrust the counsel of the ego and gradually turning to the Holy Spirit for guidance. Nobody can do those steps for you, for only by living them do they become authentically your own. Yet it helps greatly whenever you encounter someone in person (or in this case through a book) who clearly demonstrates by example what it means to follow Jesus in practice to his Kingdom that is not of this world. It has nothing to do with theological or intellectual comprehension or being impractical, but it does have everything to do with learning to live from the authenticity of Who we really are.
Copyright, © 2010 Rogier F. van Vlissingen. All rights reserved.
